Below are the 14 most recent journal entries recorded in Jared's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
12:18 pm	sporadic yes, my post asre getting more and more sporadic i know... oh well yesterday was interesting... i drove to huntington indiana at 6am and didn't get back until 11:30pm looong day... thats a good 17.5 hour day!! so my boss told me to just come in when i felt like it today (yeah!) and i came in around 10:30 instead of my usual 6:30 (hey, i have a good 9 hours overtime) he figured 8 or 9 i would come in... hehehe well, he did say whenever! i did go with someone else, a guy named Al (hes a month older then my mom) and he was pretty cool... we ended up talking about music at one point, and he told me of a band/orchestra called Barrage... i should llok it up and find out who they are! anyhoo, it was a long day, didn't eat, sit, or even pee from the time we got there to the time we left... ugh... oh well, fixed there problems (all stupid user errors) and we finally left and came home... over all not a bad experience, but not one i'd want to repeat... oh well... can't wait to see blue tonight! plus i get to see her fri... don't see her much, maybe twice a week if i'm lucky... give mike a call after work and see what hes doing tommorrow or thursday, if hes free one of those days, see my parents the other... which means sat is first free day!!! which of course means i'll be doing something with somebody... hehehe oh well... toodles! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
12:26 pm	i love snow... yes, you heard me, snow!!! i love it! hehehe theres nothing quite like white puffy stuff that floats down and you can play with... love the stuff.... eh well, mondays gonna be interesting for me, still not sure, but i gots me a 50/50 chance of going down to indiana again except thins time its further... so i'd be gone pretty much all day mondady... yucky... oh well, 6 hours down, 6 hours up, and 3 hours working, not to bad... poo... work time again, bye (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 18th, 2004
12:06 pm	booyah grandmother... nah, doesn't work so once again i'm writing... i still feel like crap, mostly cuz of lack of sleep... i haven't been sleeping NEARLY as much as i should... not that its any different, just that i'm up at 5 every morning... yeah yeah i know, i say that all the time, but come on! its 5am! not even the birds are up that early... tonight is the night though! i'll get lots of sleep... and feel good tommorrow... i hope *crosses fingers* sleep = good but anyhoo, i'm just not really in the writing mood... does anyone else know what thats like? anyone? Anyone? come on! fess up!! admit it!!!! i bought some christmas / b-day presents yesterday! yeah! starting early for the first time EVER... yup, got mike that couch cover... LOL... just kidding... or am i? nah i'm joking... no i'm not yes i am... anyways. (shakes head to imply that i'm not joking) (then shakes head to imply that i AM joking) it never ends, does it? i'm just get wierder and wierder... ah well... i'm off... i just can't think of anything to say... and when that happens, you KNOW i get odd... toodles! Current Mood: foggy brain headed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 17th, 2004
12:13 pm	huffalump yes, i said huffalump.... better then a coosalagoopagoop (coos-a-la-goop-a-goop) so, lemme see... i THINK yesterday was mike and kates 5 month... soooo congrats! work's long, i'm actually sick(!!), and i have bills to pay.... *sigh* my muscles are all sore, and my throats scratchy... blue came over last night and we ended up bickering (no fights) i was just crabby... sick, tired, and sore... yeah i know, she was the same... tired, sore (knee hurt REALLY bad) and had lots of homework to do we had tl deal with her mother earlier that night... what a DRAIN! i love the woman dearly, but she and blue got into it when i was there... just kinda shrunk into a little ball with the dog (ever BETTER idea) and played while blue and her mother yelled about her finances... ah well only a good 2 hours wasted... wonderful night... one good thing did happen! we (roomies) hired a maid!! that way the place actually stayes clean and dude shes awesome! (its codie) then i woke up with a wounded leg today! i dont know what i did to this, but now i've gota bruise on my inner thigh... no, i didn't do anything to cause it either, it was just there!! owwy... big purple bruise... ugh it may just be cuz i'm sick and easily bruise... i hope... otherwise i'm running into things that i dont know about! i think i know what one thing bugged me about yesterday... i was in a 'no touchy' mood... i'm NEVER in a no touchy mood... specially since i dont see blue very often (maybe twice a week) LOL i think i actually figured it out... you know when baby's get cranky and whiney when they should be sleeping, but won't goto bed? yeah, that was me yesterday... i did NOT want to sleep, but i should have been in bed at 8... ah well (i know it was bad cuz i didn't even wanna do math! and it was EASY math!!) i was sad,cuz for blues and my one month shes gonna be in boston... all thanksgiving weekend!! oh well, that and i had a fun idea for an anniversary gift... and she seemed to like that it came from me... but that was about it, she didn't seem to like it by itself all that much... i got very little reaction, so i said "dont you like it?" she said "i love that its from YOU thats what matters" which means she didn't like it... le sigh again i ramble.... so stop i will... ah! yoda... anyhoo work time Current Mood: disoriented (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 15th, 2004
12:23 pm	Ribs... owwy So sometime on thursday night i hurt myself severly... i normally dont say i hurt bad, but this time... wow Got to work friday and my ribs hurt a little... owwy, not to good, must have pulled a muscle... by friday night i couldn't breathe, coughing sent shocks of pain up to my head, and i actually cried a little it hurt so bad... got worse on saturday... blue took care of me a little, helped out, but not much she could do the wierdest thing was when i went to lay down, pain started up real bad like, and couldn't breathe... hurt alot, and tried to sit up, to painful, tried to roll over hurt bad to, couldn't move it hurt so bad, so i rolled off my bed and into a little ball...that felt better but hurt bad to get like that... i couldn't lay down because that hurt, and i couldn't lay on my sides, so i had to fall asleep sitting up, which doesn't work that well... i went to the ER on sunday (i know i'm bullheaded) and doctor gave me happy fun time pills! couldn't feel a thing... so i went over to see mike cuz i told him i would, and was supposed to spend the day with him, and ended up spending about 2 hours with him... pain started back (oh, can't laugh either) and it HURT... doc said i couldn't take anymore until around 6ish so i gimped back... it was fun! pain from my hip up to my neck... i can strech and move a little, but if i take anything but a shallow breathe, it HURT... turned to fast it HURT... laughed and it HURT... anything that moved my ribs hurt... oh yeah, my ribs move around... about an inch either direction... not supposed to do that... don't know what i did.. doc told me, don't remember... gonna go work now... tired and sore and in pain... sigh... help? p.s. sorry about he horrible english... at work with no meds, hurt too much to care Current Mood: ouch (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 11th, 2004
12:18 pm	Hi yall! i gots me a raise today! i was called into my bosses office, and he and the big boss didn't look happy... first thing they said was, "were upset, but not at you, dont worry" what a relief, then they said they were very impressed with the way i was working, that i was getting jobs done on time and under budget... so they were very happy... so they gave me a raise! not huge, but still, its very nice to be appreciated and actually get something from it... so woohoo!!! been a GREAT day today... had a good morning, slept well last night after working ALL day (in elkhart indiana! wow, looong trip, lots of waiting) and its been a good day! i get to see Blue this evening, and hopefully talk to some friends who i haven't been able to see in a long time oh, no final haven for me this weekend! to much other stuff to do... hopefully i'll be able to get back into FH later, i mean we've got ALL winter (have to get back on the boards!) anyhoo, i'm a little worried about Blue, she goes into the doctor today to see about her bad knee (its prolly going to need surgery! eeps!) wish her well today! man, dad's b-day on the 9th, mikes the 13th, shaa 19th, thanksgiving 25th and 30th is 1 month with Blue! full month! plus decs got christmas, new years.... ohhhh....new years... that'll be 2 months with Blue O:-) i know, i'm pathetic :D and Blues b-day is the 22nd of dec! ahh!! that'll be a full two weeks... Current Mood: raising... ;-) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 8th, 2004
12:21 pm	I slit a sheet, a sheet i slit... and on the slitted sheet i sit... now say that five times fast ;-) lol... so languages have been coming back to haunt me lately! all those few things that ive learned, those little bits of snippets of hlaf a phrase... German, Japanese, Spanish, French, and even latin! now granted, i can't speak fluently in ANY of these languages, but i do know a little... poco... ito... ito ito ito... lol so i'm starting to learn german! woohoo! a language to learn, besides, its prolyl the easiest for me to learn (i've heard it all my life, quite frequently too) it'll be interesting to see how it goes... OMG!! "Nutcracker" hte moscow ballet was sooo cool... Blue and i saw it yesterday (its a week as of yesterday!) it was awesome, but it wasn't the traditional ballet or even music that most people recognize... yes the songs were there (Sugar plum fairy etc) but they were in the ORIGINAL form... in america we changed it, and rearranged it to fit something a little more spectacular, the original was very, practical... it was about the DANCING not the story, not anything else, but the movement, very interesting anyhoo, gotta go! talk to yall laters :D (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, November 5th, 2004
2:18 pm	first out of state trip! yeha! alcart (sp?) indiana here i come! thats where i'm taking the 4 ram pull tester... it will eventually get shipped to california, but for now its going to indiana... which means that next wednesday i'll be in indiana all day... literally 6:30 am until 8 pm maybe i'll be home by then... they figured it'll be a loooong day for me... a drop off, and start up all in the same day! wait... this isn't good... ewwy oh well... just had to express my unfound joy and amazement at my prediciment lol (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004
9:28 am	Wow... this is a hard test just a few simple questions... but they are sooo difficult!! narrowing it down to only one? jeesh... oh well... this is what i got I am the Natural Childhood is the golden paradise we are always consciously or unconsciously trying to re-create. The Natural embodies the longed-for qualities of childhood - spontaneity, sincerity, unpretentiousness. In the presence of Naturals, we feel at ease, caught up in their playful spirit, transported back to that golden age. Adopt the pose of the Natural to neutralize people's defensiveness and infect them with helpless delight. Symbol: The Lamb. So soft and endearing. At two days old the lamb can gambol gracefully; within a week it is playing "Follow the Leader." Its weakness is part of its charm. The Lamb is pure innocence, so innocent we want to possess it, even devour it. What Type of Seducer are You? created by polite_society </p> now you'll have to tell me if you agree or not ;-) lol... its mostly me... me happy at least... i should take this test angry and see how i do... hehehe anyhoo this is all i have time for, stupid work is keeping me BUSY BUSY BUSY!!! no time for anything now... *sigh* hopefully by this time next week things will have calmed down... :D Current Mood: tired, once again (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 1st, 2004
12:20 pm	Kick butt weekend Wow!!! I had one of the best/worst weekends ever... first, i skipped work :D called in on an overtime saturday... hehehe... good still was late picking up Blue for chicago... bad driving in a car with just Blue and me... good taking the wrong turn on to Ogden and spending an extra 30 minutes getting there... bad getting there and geting into my mobster coustume which everyone loved... good watching scary movies that gave Blue nightmares... bad seeing my friends and partying with them... good having Blue call me her boyfriend, GREAT!!!! ITS OFFICIAL!! I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND!! woohoo!! there is of course only one word that can truly cover this emotion completly... booyah... no, this isn't me just hoping, we talked about it, and she smiled at me and said i make her feel safe... and lots of other mushy things were said between us... hehehe... yes, i have asked her, and yes we are now a couple... lol... there is someone i can call my girl, and someone that can call me hers... :D although to balance it out, i zoned out on the highway and ended up half way to Lansing.... grrr... dont drive tired... bad... at least it was only an hour out of the way... so i got about 2 hours of sleep last night, and my phone stopped working today... i think it because my bill is due tommorrow, but i can't call and pay it cuz my freaking phone doesn't work! its not even DUE until tommorrow!! argh!!! oh well... i have a girlfriend, i have a girlfriend... i'm soooo happy... lol... and funniest part of all is that it happened on halloween... what a teriffic anniversary! :D btw, i think she likes the name Blue... she doesn't know about all the talking i've done here about her... nor will she... right? her favorite character from an Anime we both love is named blue... shes a wolf/human its pretty cool... anyhoo... i'm going to go be happy and crappy at the same time! booyah... grandma Current Mood: super happy and exhausted (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
12:18 pm	Shocking news! Yesterday a man was arrested while getting onto an airplane... his crime? being a math teacher!! when going thorugh the airport, he put his bag onto the xray machine thingy... i know, very technical... anyhoo, when his bag went through the people started tearing it apart, taking out all of his teaching aides... rulers, calculators, pencils, t-squares, and books... then the police grabbed him and took him away. when they were taking him away he asked what he was being arrested for... the police said, "for having instruments of math instruction..." (mass destruction) hehehe sorry! it was a great pun i heard the other day, and i just haaad to say it... i've been pouring over math again... and today at work i talked to my boss about that infamous 10 door problem... he poopooed it... like usual... most of my friends have... certain ones more then others... but the problem is as follows You goto a game show and they tell you that behind one of these ten doors is a prize... they ask you to pick one door... so pick one (1-10)... now the man goes through and opens 8 of the doors, leaving all but yours and one of the ones you didn't pick... he then asks you again, which door do you want? what door should you choose and why? the correct answer is pick the door you DIDN'T choose... the odds of it being behind that door are much greater! 10% behind your door, 90% dehond the other door... heres how i explained it to my boss... i think this one helps alot... i'm thinking of a number between 1 and a million... pick a number... so you pick 17, i say its either 17 or 16,745,643 which one do you think my number was??? sensible people would go, well i didn't have much of a chance guess it right, so the other number is probably it... which would be right, because the odds of you being right in that circumstance is .0001% (or one in a million) where the other numbers probablilty is 99.9999% with extremes like that, its a little easier to see... then again, some people are just stubborn *wink* lol oh well... i got to play teacher last night!! i did math home work with Blue and helped her out with logs, polynomials, factoring, and other fun aspects like that... hehhe... it was pretty sad cuz i was actually enjoying myself like a LOT... i miss math... i started talking at one point, and her eyes glazed over, so i figured i shouldn't explain how logarithms came to be, how to find them, what they are, etc... i was having fun!! it was that type of information that used to... nm... anyhoo i was having fun, and then she pulled out ... dum dum dum... the english paper!!! ahh!!! ok, i never had a problem writing, didn't like it much, did ok when i actually spent some time doing it, but i didn't expect to go back to this stuff again!!! she was writing on wordsworth (brit lit) and we sat and read some of his stuff together... i was half asleep... she has a really nice voice... :D but i did help her out! she doesn't like writing persuasive, and come on... look at me! i love stuff like that... so we worked on it... i actually enjoyed english for the first time... being able to talk about it like that was fun... it was a lot easier to exam it, and to analize it then i remember... maybe i'm just smarter now ;-) lol anyways, late lunch... gotta jet back to work now! booyah... i really gotta stop talking about blue... i need to find something a little less... emotional? maybe less dealings with the heart... eh... i'll figure it out later... more math!!!! woohoo!!! Current Mood: tummyache (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 26th, 2004
12:12 pm	i know... i know one reason i'm feeling so angry lately... but i'm not gonna talk about it... grrr... theres prolly only one person out there that really understands... well... maybe not... theres really only one good change happening in my life... and i don't even know how she feels!!! argh Lil Blue Eyes, you're just as frustrating as all the other women whom i've known... well at least i can look forward to pumpkin seeds!! unfortunately i'm working overtime this weekend... so i might not get to visit my friend josh in chicago this weekend like planned... but it i go late friday night, Blue might come with me! yea!! it'll be nice to spend some time with her away from this town, specially down to navy pier... not that theres anything wrong with this place, just with work being the way it is, its very tiring being around here... i had errands to run yesterday and i ended up taking an unforseen nap in the middle of the day O:-) hehhee... but the good thing about getting up at 5am every day now is that on weekends, sleeping in until noon feels like i've wasted half the day! lol... i'm actually up a lot early on weekends now... :D its nice joshs party is this weekend!! ahhh!! and i finally get to see amy with her big pregnant tummy! yeah!! lol... it'll be interesting to see everyone from college again... well, at least all the guys... some of them at least, the rest are in the peace corp... four of my friends from college joined up!! finally figured out that a philosophy major didn't help them too much... now i wonder about creative writing majors... O:-) hehehe *sigh* you know what? i need to keep track of my schedule better... i htink maybe i'll use LJ here to help with that... its easy then a book, and i can check it from work and home... ohhh... 10/26 (tonight) three appointments (1 hour each) and bills stupid phone... *grumble* 10/27 pumpkin seeds!!! 10/28 pay rent 10/29 night - out with Blue 10/30 morning - overtime 10/30 afternoon - overtime 10/30 night - heading to Chicago with Blue (if she doesn't work) 10/31 morning - playing in Chicago 10/31 afternoon - heading back to muskegon 10/31 night - sleepy!! and watch "Boston Legal" cuz alias isn't on til jan 11/06 purchasing feather mattress and sheets for bed (so i can actually sleep comfy) 11/07 03:00PM moscow ballet presents "The Nutcracker" i'm taking Blue to go see it 11/07 going out to eat, and enjoying the early night life of Grand Rapids 11/12 - 11/14 Brighton,MI for FinalHaven Current Mood: blank (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
12:22 pm	Those three little questions You know what? I would like everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Then post it on your lj for others to do the same. Ask me anything you want, anything at all, no matter how hard it may be for me to answer. Just remember that what ever you ask, i will answer truthfully, so only ask what you really want the answer to. I'm still me, but not as shy, and a lot more bold. I've done so much in the past few years, that i just dont know what to do or say about any of it. a lot of my life went in different drections, and others just ended. some ever blossomed, those parts that i was scared about before, those pats that i trusted one person with, it keeps hitting me... keeps pushing me... and i keep fighting it... i feel like jonah lol regardless, i've been learning... and i can't stop... every chance i get i try to learn something new, and i think thats the reason i'm so sporadic, not the ADD or anything, just i can't stay still cuz i wanna find out more, learn more, explore more... i'll be traveling alot soon... i joined a karate class... i can drive stick shifts, i'm learning to drive a motorcycle... i'm learning to play the flute, i can play the piano, sorta, so i wanna take more lessons... i've been sewing alot, made myself a nice renisannce costume, besides the cloak i made recently... i'm getting phyisically stronger... i've become bolder, more confident of myself, i speak my mind a lot more, and ... i've been angry... not so happy about the last one... but i'm learning to understand it... still angry now... very angry... i actually yelled at people... it felt wierd... didn't like it much... like the outcome, just not the yelling... but my tummys paying some of the price... feels like its churning half the time... yuck... dont like it... but i do like tummy O:-) lol i can't stop, i must learn more... if only there was a way to find new things to learn so i didn't have to go out to find more stuff to learn... *sigh* questions questions questions... now if only i had the answers... Current Mood: eh... (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 19th, 2004
12:08 pm	Two things on my mind Well today there are tw things on my mind... nope, three, but not gonna talk about the third... First... i got a LOT of responces to my last post... yes, i am pissed at life... i am pissed all around, and i NEVER get like this... i honestly have never be like this before... even yesterday out with a friend, i was angry... not at him, just in general... its eatting me up inside... now this is prolyl gonna be the last time i use this as a forum, this is my THOUGHTS... everything in my head out on paper... i dont expect people to read this, and i dont expect people to comment, if they do, COOL BEANS! if not, thats ok too... this is just my little area i use to express myself.. i dont know if its just that i'm finally mad at myself for not taking control of my life or what, there is just something out there i need to do and i dont know what it is yet... LOL... i actually think i know what it is, but i think i'd scare a LOT of people... (its nothing bad, just no one would believe me) heck, ive only told one person about it, and she didnt believe me... oh well... live and learn i could go on and on with this, but i wanna jump to something else that hit me today... pain... i love pain... i'm sitting here and realizing that i hurt... being angry or whatever just covers it up a little... i can't quiet put it all in words, and i'm sure it been said before and is common sense, but it just struck me today... maybe again... dunno... i believe in the balance of four... four things to make a person, four things to bring them together... physical (body), mental (mind), spiritual (soul), emotional (spirit) steaming forth from the fifth (i know i said four, but this isn't one) which is your spark... your flame... where your passion springs from... anyways... as a person you are comprised of the four things connected together from your spark... a person is attracted to each of the four individually, and for a TRUE union, you MUST have compatible sparks... if there is no spark, no matter how compatible other ways it won't work... just no interest... now this ties in with pain easily.. when you are hurt is stays with you... you get a cut, you hurt... scars heal, you forget... its that simple... except it works on all aspects of your self... anyone who has ever had a broken heart understands... its hurts, really really hurts... pain all throughout your body... it fades over time... scars heal... you forget... you are emotionally abused in a relationship, you get hurt... you might not feel it right away, but the pain is there... the cringing, the shying away... the sowering from fright that you dont understand... its all there... see? more pain... but with time, and healing, you forget... i think pain is gods greatest gift... the ability to know somethings wrong... to nurse ourself, and others... to remember there was pain, but no longer feel it... god is good... god is kind... but god also left us with one sad problem... what about your spark? how does that feel? does it feel pain? can it be hurt? can what holds you together truely be in pain? yes you can be worn down, cry, but its all superficial... even a broken heart doesn't hurt the spark... your spark shines as true as it did before, just not as bright as it might have with a compatible spark... which brings on pain to other aspects of yourself... so can it feel pain? your spark doesn't really feel pain... except the worst kind imaginable... being alone Current Mood: contemplative (3 Comments |Comment on this)